MERRY GO ROUND

I sell my soul to feel alive again Some days, I wish I could pretend So sick of waking up in the mornings I find myself praying to God again I don't know if I hear a friend 'Cause it's just me doing the talking I'm stuck inside this merry go round Don't know if I wanna get out What's so wrong with being honest? 'Cause I drink too much, I think too much I barely like myself enough I say I'm fine, but I hurt inside I fall in love, I fuck it up Then wonder what the fuck it was It's all a lie, and I'm terrified All my days feeling like weeks again I find myself spiraling With every turn I lose a piece of my heart Stuck inside this merry go round Don't know if I wanna get out What's so wrong with being honest? 'Cause I drink too much, I think too much I barely like myself enough I say I'm fine, but I hurt inside I fall in love, I fuck it up Then wonder what the fuck it was It's all a lie, and I'm terrified And I'm on my knees Surrounded Just underneath, I'm drowning It is all a lie, and I'm terrified I drink too much, I think too much I barely like myself enough I say I'm fine, but I hurt inside I fall in love, I fuck it up Then wonder what the fuck it was It's all a lie, and I'm terrified